Mixed feeling

Feel weird to even have the thought of wanting a set of negative medical test result. But that is the only way to run away from "uncertainty" and not having any penalties.

I still remember the day where i told the people around me of my ideal job, how i used to envy people in such a "position"... but now, it feels so different.

Noonewilleverunderstand. becialsodontknowhwtoexplainit.