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Im such a failure, screwing up my first career. It time that i should let go. I once thought that if i were to hold on to it longer (perhaps after probation), i may get familiar with the things happening, the SOP and stuff, and be more confident in decisions making.

But I was wrong.

Its not Xi guan jiu hao. Its yue xian yue sheng.

The decisions I have made eventually came back hitting hard at me.

I cant even guide myself and i was expected to guide the team of people with at least 10 years of experience.

Im not even firm in questioning/scolding let alone allowing my team to depend on me to back them up.

:(

Walking out of this is so not easy.

Its not just about typing and handing in letter. Its not so easy...